It's not about me anymore

When the going gets tough, the kids just know how to be cute :) that's what gets us through

I really do not want to believe that, and I guess in the large scheme of things, missing a Yoga class today is not a big deal.  For me it would be my getaway, my escape, my recharge, from all the intensity of our trip.  Why today, why now?  Because it is the only time my Yoga teacher that I trained with, the only Yoga that I love to do, is right now and around the corner from where I live.  Usually we have a routine, a plan, and I am able to get away for an hour, and before when the kids were in school, I would put the baby down for his morning nap, and freedom was around the corner.

I keep on thinking about the word freedom, and to every person it means something completely different.  For me it is about not losing myself in the world of mommy and wife.  Yes I feel blessed for my amazing fortune, yes I work hard to stay present, but that is exactly why it is so draining.  Thank God for my Yoga and my work, that is really my recharge.

Today there is just so much to do, we unloaded the RV yesterday, the house is a disaster, and we always like to clean for Shabbat.  There is no food in the fridge, so now my husband is running around getting stuff we need and I am stuck.  Luckily I get to let it out here on this blog, the kids are watching a show, the baby is napping, and I feel blessed to have this outlet.

Family, Team, Group, Network, or any Relationship, it truly works when its not about "ME" any more.  You know what they say, there is no "I" in team.  I think I was trying really hard to not fully comprehend that concept, I liked thinking I could always squeeze in me.  Yes the we is rewarding, but in order to give energy to the "WE," it is important not to neglect the "ME."  So I guess that is how I can come to terms with it, I know I do not neglect myself, and if once in a while I need to give up something for the whole, it's OK, as long as its once in a while.

I love talking to myself :)
Cracking up,
TAKE CARE OF YOU!
OR WHO ELSE WILL DO IT FOR YOU?
Looking forward to a relaxing Shabbat,
Have a Fabulous Weekend,
Shabbat Shalom,
Coach Yulia