Monday, June 4, 2012

Reality Check

Happy Monday Everyone :)  It is amazing how one day could have the highest highs, and then quite a big drop.  Overall yesterday my day was amazing, and then my oldest son just did not want to listen, and was very upset.  I know it must be really hard, with his sister right after, and now a baby brother, it's really not just about him anymore.  This is a good lesson for life in general, but for a kid, it must seem like the end of the world sometimes.  I do my best to give long hugs and kisses, and to tell him how much I love him and how wonderful he is.  Of course when the baby cries I run, and when my daughter wants me, I give her what she needs. 

None of this is huge compared to what other people are going through, but in our own worlds and in our own lives, it seems like the biggest deal, and I guess to deal with that, we must step outside of the emotion, be calm, patient and firm,  easier said than done.

I had such a busy day planned, but everything got rescheduled, so all I want to do now is "clean house," do stuff that I have been putting off.  Buy new underwear for my son and the first for my daughter, she is showing interest, and we want to start encouraging her in the summer.  Oh life with kids, where at first the most important conversation is about poop - the color, consistency, how often.  Then its about teaching them how to poop into the potty.  Some people think its really intense to have small kids so close, but for my personality, I would rather be in the poopie years and out of the poopie years completely.  Some people who married young space their children out, and love to give all of their attention to the littlest.  More power to them, it would be hard for me to find sleep again, and then to knowingly wish it goodbye.

I just started teaching a private Yoga class for the first time since I had my baby, and it was so good to see friends, and just have that positive energy exchange.  I think getting back to my balance of work and family, will help me have a better perspective and more patience.  I cannot be around baby world all day, in order to recharge I need to GET OUT!

We saw a picture yesterday at my mother in law's house that was a month after our wedding, and my husband said that is where I looked my best.  That is my goal my friends, I am so excited I have dropped 1% of my bodyfat and have kept my lean muscle tone, just drinking my two shakes a day plus one meal and snacks.  I have been doing my power walks and zumba, but now I am going to step up my workouts, I am ready for that extra 30 pounds to go!  Here I am on my wedding day, almost 5 years ago, and 30 pounds ago.  Baby, here I come!

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